Birth Day

Yesterday was Scarlett's 4th birthday.  Four years since my epidural allowed me to laugh her right out of me.  Three years since she wore a tutu, not yet walking, as she turned one.  Two years since she was barely able to have her hair forced into pigtails as she turned two.  And one year since she dressed as a princess with her friends and ruled a land of fairytales as she turned three.

Four is different.  Four is the last "baby" birthday.  Five means she will be off to kindergarten... without me.

She is the most amazing four year old I know.  Her imagination is beyond belief.  She has an amazing abilitly to perform.  She's cute and sweet, and just a tad fiesty.  She can make you laugh on even your most down day.  She is perfect.

I love you, Scarlett Lily Garcia!

First Blog EVER.

I thought it was about time I hopped on this bandwagon.  I follow a few blogs, but mostly those of friends.  This will be my first entry.
I'm a wife, married 5 years come this September.  I'm a nanny, currently to a 2 year old little boy.  And I'm a mom, to my daughter Scarlett.  She will be 4 in two days.  FOUR.  I can't get over it.
And then this brings me to the purpose of wanting to start blogging... I'm pregnant.  Again.  And when I say "again", I don't mean "again"- as in since my daughter, I mean "again"- as in on May 20th of this year I found out I was pregnant, and on May 28th I found out I no longer was.
I hadn't quite gotten used to the idea.  Although I had been begging my husband for another child for the past year, when he finally gave in and it happened, I was in shock.  How will we do this?!
After the miscarriage, I knew I wasn't done trying.  On August 22nd, I took a positive pregnancy test.  And on August 24th I took another.  And I'm not doubting I will take yet another.
As I looked at the word "Pregnant" on the digital test, I thought to myself, why?  Why did I do this?  Why am I rocking the boat? 
I'm not sure why.  And I'm scared that I will lose this pregnancy too.  But most of all I am hopeful that this will add yet another chapter to my life, as a nanny, mom and wife.